My hearts pounding as the words I never wanted to hear slipped from your lips Like a snake wrapping around its prey My mind searched for an answer as my heart felt as if it would bleed I wanted to understand, not accuse or assume. I didn't want to blame because to me your still the person I fell for. I knew that in that instant you weren't. But I denied it taught away. And I wouldn't fight you. I'd give you what you wanted. Even if it meant crushing my own world. I'll do it again. Its foolish to let a fool have power over your fragile heart. But its even harder pretending I'm fine. At 12 pm I'm perky and smiling but at midnight I'm crying asking the world why does it hurt so bad. I'm not a stranger to goodbyes especially to the ones I desperately don't want to face. Everyday seems to lose a little more color. Everything seems to lose excitement. Something I thought I'd never think again is there. And you're no where to be seen. The tears I promised to never leave my eyes fell. The swelling in my heart I never dreamed to be there again made its presence known. The emptiness I have in my mind is so heavy. The trust I swore to never give a selfish lover I gave to you. My heart still beats without an ounce of regret but the pain of wanting you is strong I almost gave in. I fought the impossible fight and lost. My heart still pounds when I see your name. I'm wrapped up in you but you have detangled yourself from me. Leaving me breathless, while you breathe Your unaffected well I feel everything The wes have become mes, the us has become I's If you were to ask I'd lie and say "Everything has been just fine" but when you split every thing that seemed legit seem to turn to a pile of ash from the fiery hate I know I should have but I don't. I just don't understand. Did the 3 am talks mean nothing? Did the part of my life I've shared with very few mean that little to you? Or was it all too much? Maybe it wasn't enough. I just wanted to hold your hand and not give a damn. I just wanted to shower in love if you just give me time to bring my walls down. I'm not the easiest person but you weren't the hardest, I guess you wanted what I lacked. What I couldn't give. I wanted to give you the most important part of me. There wasn't enough time I could have give you the world if you wanted You wanted what I didn't have. Even though I could've given more. I still don't understand. Then I saw it. I wasn't special to you you treated everyone the same. But I... Never mind there's not much else to say. But this is what I wanted to tell you. Instead I'll keep it locked away.